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Should I kill myself or have a cup of tea?

I decide on the latter and I'm not sure why. Probably because I can. Life is a never-ending scroll of be-goods, be-happies, be-in-controls, be-okays, be-strongs and be-appreciatives. So what's another day?

Just another day closer to death.

Still, life seems incredibly long, don't you think? So long, it's hard to see the end and nearly impossible to touch – even with a knife in my hand that could easily skewer my heart, make it squirm and still like a dying nightingale – sealing its death with a pathetic squeal of almost-song.

Life is pain and people in pain are a pain in the ass. Perhaps occasionally or perhaps frequently, they think "Why not just kill myself? Life is hell, anyway. No hell after life could be worse than this."

But they're wrong. The worst is never the worst because things can always get worse and maybe that's why I decided to stick with the chamomile tea. That or I feel tea-sipping is reason to live.

Probably.

My perpetually cold hands warm the heated cup and I breathe in the steam. Maybe I think it'll fill me – the never-ending pit of my angsty teenage soul. I breathe and the steam sinks to the bottom – wherever that is – and I laugh because I think that is all I am. A never-ending abyss of steam. Not air, not fire, not water, not earth. Just steam.

With chamomile tea for a soul.

That's funny.
Leave your thoughts on it, if you'd like. Either way, thank you for reading :)

Here's something else I wrote, But I Love Him: [link]
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cristinewakesuphappy Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:+fav:

hi! i hope you don't mind my humble feature:
your lovely piece is handpicked. (link)

thank you.
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jesterdawning Featured By Owner May 25, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
This is fucking gorgeous... I love it! *sips tea* Seriously though, I relate to this on a very deep and personal level. Thank you for putting my unexplainable thoughts into such well-chosen words.
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xTintedlullabyx Featured By Owner May 30, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Damn "fucking gorgeous" might just be one of the best compliments I've ever received haha. I'm pleased you were able to relate to this. I do my best to reach through ribcages and pump hearts ;P
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sylvania Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012  Professional General Artist
beautiful simplicity and lovely metaphor. i love this piece.
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AnimeChick8400 Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
I read this last night and i love it, but then today i remembered the name of it while i was talking to my best friend on the phone and then i asked him "Should I kill myself, or have a cup of tea?" and he went silent then replied "For god sakes , pick the tea." lol this is great! you did a really good job!
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xTintedlullabyx Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Haha, maybe I'll start a trend xD The new greeting: Should I kill myself or have a cup of tea? ;P

And thank you. I'm glad you liked it!
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AnimeChick8400 Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Lol ya and no prob!
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jadeaimi Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012
Very dark humor. I think I will fave this and write a response to it in a similar style.
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xTintedlullabyx Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Please do =D Perhaps we could do this back-and-forth poetry thing haha. I'm glad you liked it.
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cristinewakesuphappy Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:tea: it's a good read.

my :+fav: lines:

But they're wrong. The worst is never the worst because things can always get worse and maybe that's why I decided to stick with the chamomile tea. That or I feel tea-sipping is reason to live.

Probably.

My perpetually cold hands warm the heated cup and I breathe in the steam. Maybe I think it'll fill me – the never-ending pit of my angsty teenage soul. I breathe and the steam sinks to the bottom – wherever that is – and I laugh because I think that is all I am. A never-ending abyss of steam. Not air, not fire, not water, not earth. Just steam.

With chamomile tea for a soul.



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